Friday, February 17, 2012
I recently attended a great donation based workshop/ event hosted by Charm City Yoga. It was called Karma Yoga and the proceeds were donated towards the Africa Yoga Project. Originally I had signed up for this event because my instructor from the Teacher Training program was teaching the class and I knew I would love whatever she put together.
At the beginning of this work shop cards were passed around and we were asked to select the one that spoke to us. The purpose was to put the cards at the top of your mat and allow the card, for whatever the reason you chose may be, to be part of your practice that evening.
The cards had artistic images from the Bhagavad Gita on them as well as some script at the bottom and a description on the back. The card I selected was Overcoming Fear.
This has been a huge goal for me this year. To be my own warrior against fear and doubt. I
am my own worst enemy when it comes to criticism. I believe I use this criticism as a way to avoid things that intimidate or scare me. Like the little voice that for years said to me, "you don't have enough yoga experience to sign up for a yoga teacher training program." Well, I proved them wrong!
Through my teacher training program I am learning to be kinder to myself. To quiet or override the voice inside that puts doubt on my drive and desire. In yoga one of my favorite postures is Warrior II (as shown above). "What’s really being commemorated in this pose’s name, and held up as an ideal for all practitioners, is the “spiritual warrior,” who bravely does battle with the universal enemy, self-ignorance (avidya), the ultimate source of all our suffering." (source)
This year in an attempt to battle my fear I've chosen to simply not allow it to stop me from going for what I want. When I am in a warrior pose I hear my teacher's voice reminding me that Warrior postures are about knowing what you want and going for it.
I have done just that. I've been true to myself. I did not let the voice whispering doubts and fears override my desire to become a yoga teacher. It is because of this that I believe I will continue to grow not only in my practice but also as a yoga teacher.
I'm very happy to announce that I was offered my first teaching job! I will be teaching the Beginner Series for Charm City Yoga starting March 13th.
Friday, January 20, 2012
According to Dictionary.com the following are definitions and synonyms for "unbalanced":
|Definition:||not even, stable|
|Synonyms:||asymmetric, asymmetrical, disproportionate,irregular, lopsided, not balanced, off-balance,shaky, topheavy, treacherous, unequal, uneven,unstable, unsteady, unsymmetrical, wobbly|
Can we take a moment a giggle about the fact that Top Heavy is a synonym for unbalanced. I mean, really?
I am feeling unbalanced this week and I'm not quite sure why. Usually when I'm feeling offish I can pin point my reason:
1. its that time of the month
2. a holiday
3. family emergency
4. a cold
But I have experienced none of these things.
This week I have missed out on my yoga practice. I have even stopped knitting. If you know me, even a little, you know that yoga and knitting are my healthy vices. They are like taking my daily vitamins. They keep me mentally and emotionally balanced. But I missed them this week. Somehow, the week has gone by and I've neither practiced nor knit. And I can't pinpoint why I chose to do this. It started on Saturday and now we're on Friday.
During a yoga class you usually find yourself practicing at least one balancing pose. I tend to like Tree pose the most. It is often in this asana (pose) that I tune in with my body and discover where my balance is or isn't. Sometimes its all on the left side, sometimes its on the right, and sometimes its just not there.
For me this week it has not been there at all. Last Saturday was thrown off by an extra beverage which lead to me feeling less than energetic on Sunday. Then on Monday I told myself I would go to practice after work but then after work I told myself I'd go Tuesday, and so the story went until I found myself on Wednesday convinced when I woke up that I was going to practice that night no matter what. But then my phone and IPOD were stolen. Yup, stolen.
If my balance was a little "wobbly" earlier in the week this threw it way off. I found myself questioning if I had lost these items myself or if someone had actually come into my place of work in the 20 minutes I was not at my desk and swiped them. I was convinced I must have misplaced them and I retraced all my steps. I started to doubt my memory which is a terrible thing.
And so, I came home and thought... well I can't focus, if I go to yoga I'll be thinking about my phone and not be able to find balance. So again, I did not go. And I did not knit. I just sat on the couch and watching TV thinking and rethinking that 20 minutes. Thursday I did not practice either, I had dinner plans with my husband and although he would have happily waited for me to practice I didn't even give him the option.
Its funny because I know how to find my balance. Its to stick with my routine. For me, routine is very important and healthy. It calms me and yet I did this to myself this week. I made excuses and that is never balancing.
The good news is that I am always able to find my balance. I get back to my routine. I get back to the mat and I pick up my knitting needles. My new phone should be delivered today, I will be back on the mat tonight, and I've already planned out my next two knitting projects (they are quite juicy!).
"Yoga cultivates the ways of maintaining a balanced attitude in day to day life and endows skill in the performance of one's actions." B.K.S. Iynegar.
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
In 2011 I learned to overcome some of fears. I believe I truly realized that I'm the only one who holds me back. I spent year's fearing yoga studios. I thought I was not skinny enough or strong enough. I thought I didn't have the right clothes or that my lame Target mat would get laughed out the door. None of that was true. In 2011, I joined up, bought a membership, got a work-study position and began attending classes 3x a week!
I also learned that while I loved my wedding, I never ever want to go through the planning process again. haha
I am grateful that I married a man I truly love, who makes me laugh every day, who feels like home, and whom I look forward to growing old with.
I'm grateful that I finally signed up for a yoga teaching training program and that I found an amazing studio.
I'm grateful that I got a work-study position that allows me to have a free membership at my yoga studio.
I'm grateful for my wonderful family and friends who supported me while I became a terrible version of myself trying to plan a wedding in 5 months.
I'm grateful I got to go to Ireland (a life long dream) and that I went with an awesome travel buddy, my husband.
I'm grateful that I participated in a 10 day detox that allowed me to realize what my body's natural rhythm is. Turns out I'm naturally perky and don't really need coffee.
Married my husband
Went to Ireland
Signed up for a Yoga Teacher Training program
I would like to learn how to utilize my core more to move through my yoga poses. Crow, you will be mine in 2012! You hear me!
I would like to learn how to get over my fear of failure and rejection. Its silly really, I've never died from rejection and I've failed a lot, so why do I get caught up in it like its the plague coming to end everything? Silly, Sara.
I would like to learn more about my taxes (sorry that is boring but true!)
I want to spend more time with my awesome little brother. He'll soon being going off to grad school and he'll be hours away. He's been just 45 mins away for 4 years and I have not made enough effort to just share time with him.
I want to spend time with the people in my life and those I have yet to meet who are full of life. Who make me laugh. And to balance that I do not wish to spend time with the debbie downers, they are weights people. Anchors in a dank ocean. I prefer to sail up high and see the sun :)
I currently spend my time either with friends and family, reading for yoga, practicing yoga, or catching up on TV while knitting. (watch out, someone's life is supa crazy! Knitting is cool guys, come on.) Oh and I work, blah, not interesting.
In 2012 I'd like to spend my time smiling, laughing, and living life. I do not want to spend it worrying.
I hope to teach yoga for the first time in 2012 and while I know I will get nervous/ anxious (palms are sweating thinking about it) I will not allow fear to stop me.
I want to spend some time detoxing. More than once. I read that it was healthy to detox at least twice a year. Clean the liver out a bit, you know? Its not easy but its so good for my body and I can feel a world of difference.
Mostly, I want to spend 2012 focused on my health and well being through a consistent yoga practice and a habit of conscious eating (aka: making smart food decisions).
So, that's it. Those are the questions. Have you asked yourself why you made the resolutions you did?